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If All Else Fails, Do Not Announce That You’re Depressed

Trigger warning! This post is full of angry rants from yours truly. I’m really getting fed up with reading the same tragic stories every day and knowing how preventable they are. It talks about babies dying and CPS and PPD and police so if you aren’t in the mood, best to keep clicking elsewhere.

So, today I was tagged in a post about a celebrity talking about her PPD. Thanks Facebook for ruining an otherwise perfectly productive day.

Who the heck is Hayden Panettiere? Oh that’s right, there’s a little thing called Google. Whoever she is, I can look her up if I care. Ever since I got a divorce and quit watching TV I feel as though I started living under a rock. Regularly my online friends write on Facebook about what shows they are watching and all I can think is how do you have the time? A J.D. and a new husband and several children and jobs later, I find myself being tagged in posts regarding postpartum depression to this day. Such and such celebrity is talking about her bout with postpartum depression.

So I click on the link I was just tagged in and I see a familiar looking face. Is she the actress from Heroes? I don’t know but why is she so depressed? I mean she’s gorgeous and famous and rich so why is she depressed? If only I could write something about her being depressed that would help someone else not be depressed. If they could only take enough of XYZ supplement or get proper sunshine or exercise… or social support.

I feel almost like I am watching the entire world self destructing sometimes. I hear about so many people suffering the same exact “side” effects from their medications every day that any time I see a sick baby or a dying baby on a mommy group or a birthing group, I assume that the baby was exposed to a psychiatric drug or to Zofran or to some crazy vaccine.

There are just as many people who think this way like I do now, as there are people out there talking about their depression and the drugs that saved them. I wonder how long the world has been like this. Some of the people I know who have lost almost everything carry on without needing to use drugs any more. A friend of mine lost her son to suicide from antidepressants, and 10 years later, lost her only other child who was murdered by her boyfriend. Another friend of mine lost her daughter to Effexor. Another lost her son to Effexor and then had a miscarriage. Another lost her son to Effexor and is a single mother. Another friend was abandoned by her father’s child and raises him alone. She’s suffered more from the choice to keep her child than most people suffer in a lifetime and yet she carries on and writes about how much joy he brings her life. These friends aren’t banging a drum for drugs or why we need them and they aren’t talking about how brave they are for talking about their depression. They’re talking about how depressed they are after losing their children and how much it sucks having to live with that because of a drug they took. Nothing, not social awareness of depression, or talking about their depression to their doctors, or all the money in the world is ever going to bring those children back.

I feel sorry for anyone who is going through postpartum depression and at the same time, I am irritated because these messages do not come with an answer for people watching. Disease promotion and awareness really do not do anyone any good. Yes, please by all means, do not be afraid to reach out for help. But it is not that simple. The people who need help the most are the ones who can’t afford to take the risk of reaching out, because of the havoc that would surely ensue. If you have PPD, yes go to your doctor and get your meds and all will be ok, right? Wrong. Well, just mention that you’re depressed, but don’t say you have any homicidal thoughts and you’ll be ok, right? Wrong. Well, not unless you’re a famous actress. Because that will create an imaginary bubble of safety around your child’s body and he will become immune from the sedating effects of drugs in breast milk. Your future pregnancies will be risk-free as well. Celebrity babies can’t get heart defects or PPHN.

In an ideal world the help available would be provided by someone who holds our trust, who offers a real solution or constructive advice, or who is there for you. It would be help free of consequences like the 100 side effects on the back of a drug label ranging from heart defects to suicide and homicide. And it would be help free of calls to CPS or police, or help that wouldn’t come up in future court cases with your future ex-husbands. It would be help free of a law requiring your therapist to report you or spend time in jail for a felony. You shouldn’t have to wear a disguise or create a fake online identity and learn computer security just to be able to talk to someone skilled in therapy about a time of crisis in your life.

I am starting to get older and I feel like I have watched the same story unfold over and over online a million times. The second that a mom admits she has feelings, CPS is called. Today I read about a mother whose son is in the hospital on breathing machines. When she became disgruntled with his care and he was getting worse, she requested a transfer. The hospital had asked this mother to quiet her crying. The next thing you know, CPS was being called and she was banned from seeing her son. The hospital immediately took protective custody of him.

Another story. A man became suicidal and told his wife about it. Family members found out and called police. Before you know it the man is in protective custody. No matter what the family wants, or what the man wants, cocktails of drugs are given to him and the family is treated like their wishes do not matter because the psychiatrist knows best. Civil rights are meaningless if a psychiatrist is standing there with emergency custody over your body.

The truth about having feelings today is not that you need to be brave enough to share them or strong enough to ask for drugs. The truth about feelings today is that you need to be brave enough to hide them and strong enough to handle it on your own without asking for help or God forbid, telling the wrong person. That is because there are some things you cannot say to a doctor or a therapist without consequences. The consequences of reaching out are not public admiration and praise. The consequences are CPS, protective custody, forced drugging and birth defects, suicide and homicide. Stop worrying so much about gun control and start worrying more about psychiatry, medical professionals, therapists, and the state trampling on our rights. Start worrying about what you don’t know about drugs and how that could hurt you or your children. There will always be depression, there will always be weapons, there will always be pain and death. But there will also always be baby smiles, flowers, music and comedy. There will be children, and grandchildren who will live on when you are gone if you are lucky.

So until you’re ready to go, make the most of the time you have and make it a drug-free life.

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Florida Joe DiMaggio Children’s Hospital to Allow Forced Genital Surgery on Chase Nebus-Hironimus

The following message is being circulated online amongst informed consent activists in the genital integrity movement, after a Joe DiMaggio Children’s Hospital employee leaked the location of a young boy’s impending forced circumcision, which could take place as early as tomorrow, Wednesday, June 10, 2015. For background on the Chase Nebus-Hironimus Story, please read here and here. This is a story about family courts attempting to enforce old parenting agreements regarding circumcision, despite the risk to the welfare and safety of a non-consenting 4 1/2 year old boy and a non-consenting mom, because “it’s just what people do.” Chase has a history of serious adverse reactions to anesthesia, keloid scarring, and may have Ehler-Danlos syndrome. He doesn’t have a medical condition that would necessitate a circumcision. It is being requested because of his father’s preference.

The doctor performing this risky surgery on a boy with serious medical contraindications to cosmetic genital surgery does not deserve to have a medical license if he risks this child’s life this coming week. Any hospital hosting this surgery should be more concerned for the child’s safety and welfare than they are for supporting the egos of a doctor or a “father.”

This is a throwaway account. I cannot give you any further information about me. This is NOT my real name. But I work at JDCH and due to my position and job I have gotten to see a lot of what has been going on surrounding Chase’s situation. I want to share what I know because I am so strongly against anyone so much as touching Chase with a ten foot pole. This is what I know – rumor or otherwise – and whether you share it with your followers or not is up to you.
-Chase’s father has not actually met with Dr Birken. From what I understand from his scheduling nurses, they are being ushered in without needing to establish a new patient relationship. Thursday will be their first meeting.
-Dr Birken will cut Chase no matter what Chase says or does in office. I have worked with Dr Birken in his office before and he is a very no nonsense doctor who will do whatever he has to in order to get done what he feels should be done. He has pressured patients and parents into unnecessary or excessive procedures in the past and I have no doubt he will have Chase forcibly restrained and put under anesthesia without regard to Chase’s medical history. Birken is NOT one of the more well loved doctors in our hospital system and that he has agreed to do this does not surprise me. You WILL NOT stop this by trying to reach out to Birken’s office – but you WILL make a big difference through the hospital itself. If you can convince them that their general image will be tarnished or that they may face lawsuits they may bar Birken from taking Chase as a patient.
-Hospital administration is threatening staff that chooses to participate in any sort of walk out, protest, or refusal to come in/work with the patient. Nobody in Birken’s office is allowed to call off sick on Thursday. They have said that they will place anyone who participates in any acknowledgement of Chase’s procedure on leave or will outright fire them for insubordination and violation of HIPPA (because by refusing to come in, protesting, or refusing to work with Birken or Chase they are acknowledging that he is a patient who will be in that day – it is a VERY fine line but the hospital believes they are within their rights).
-There is talk of secretly rescheduling the procedure to TOMORROW (Wednesday, June 10) or even to Friday. A very good friend of mine is a float nurse that was in Birken’s office yesterday and she said that one of the administrators is even considering having Birken be called to “emergency surgery” later today so that Chase can be circumcised, but I do not think this will happen.
-Regardless of when the procedure occurs the hospital will likely hire additional security detail and may also ask the police to be present all day on Thursday. This may mean additional risk for protesters, so those who do choose to protest should bring cameras and be prepared to be as open and obvious about being peaceful as possible.
-Currently the hospital is directing all questions about the case to the director of corporate communications, Kerting Baldwin – and that’s only because if it’s going to one person then all phone calls and emails can be systematically ignored if they are not “important”. I have been told that comments on the Facebook page will likely start being deleted soon (within 24 hours) and that they may shut down commenting entirely.
-Despite discussing taking precautions, hospital administration does NOT think that there will be much to worry about on Thursday. They are PREPARING for the worst but I have personally heard one of the upper level admins say that they would be shocked if there were “more than one or two of those crazy, smelly hippie moms with misspelled signs whose kids are homeschooled and unvaccinated”. That comment will probably stick with me forever. It was wrong on so many levels.
If I find out or hear more before Thursday I will be sure to let your page know.


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A few thoughts on the election and more on Common Core, Obamacare, and Ebola

Originally posted on Jenny Hatch BLOG:

UPDATE: November 23rd 2014

I have been laughing my butt off over the #GruberGate story these past two weeks. Too much fun for this free market health care blogger. Here is the summery video:

A few of my favorite tweets from election night:

Dear readers, you may be curious to know why I summed up the republican party as pro vaccine and willing to provide complete coverage from…

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A Singular Moment in my Life… #CDCwhistleblower Twitter Party

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I wish I was… blogging

The past couple of years have been so busy. Lots of things have happened in my life but this morning, while lying in bed with my baby before waking to cook breakfast and get my older boys to school, I received a comment that seemed like it was out of the blue if only because I have been too busy for blogging lately. This was the comment.


If you are just now catching up and wondering what or who this refers to, watch this video about baby Indiana Delahunty.

Things like this comment just really get to me. I am so fortunate for my healthy children, and things could have turned into a real tragedy in my life if I had continued down the path of psychiatry 9 years ago. It’s hard to believe it’s been 9 years. But even harder is knowing that there are children out there suffering for the same reasons that I started on that path in the first place. Which is to say, basically no reason whatsoever. I was drugged by my OB/GYN for NO reason whatsoever. In summary, that’s all it was. There was nothing requiring intervention. When your kid runs out in front of a car and almost gets hit, it’s normal to freak out. If your baby nearly dies at two days old, it’s normal to freak out. Even a panic attack would be ok. People do “get over” these things. People don’t need drugs to do it.

If psychotropic drugs were as safe as the candy they seem to be treated like, then go ahead, take your psychiatric drugs. But when there are umpteen million lawsuits for dead babies, suicides, murders, and even criminal defense attorneys employing the “Zoloft defense” – do you really think it’s worth it? Go get some counseling, get some “alternative” healing, anything that isn’t the chemical equivalent of taking LSD, PCP, meth or cocaine.

So what would you never get over? I guarantee you, if your baby dies in utero, you will never get over it. If you have to watch your newborn baby die in the ICU from a preventable side effect of Effexor that you didn’t need to take, you will never get over it. If your child hangs herself in the school bathroom, you will NEVER get over it.

During the past two years I’ve felt as though I have run out of things to say about psychiatric drugs. But messages like this one make it clear to me that I must keep going.

When I reread Indi’s story this morning, and the comments on the blog, I couldn’t help but think to myself that this is so important. Just a few comments up from the one that kept me awake at 5 am, is a post from a mother who lost her baby in the 90s while pregnant on Effexor.


And another writes of a miscarriage at 11 weeks.


If you’re already an activist, please don’t stop. If you’re just a parent reading this blog wondering what is going on, please start doing your research. Spare your family the sorrow that too many others know.

There are many days when I see what my friends are doing and I wonder, why can’t I be doing that? I’d much rather be on a ski trip or going to that concert, or taking a vacation, than doing what I am doing. But waking up at 4:45 am to a message like that makes me think, I’d rather be blogging.

– Amy James

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Psychology Today: Retract the article “Benzo Hysteria”

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Nancy Rubenstein Del Giudice

Benzodiazapine withdrawal has been documented to be forty times harder to withdraw from than heroin, and many people are  disabled for years from protracted withdrawal syndromes. In Britain this is recognized as a public health epidemic. This article suggests that these drugs are safe and non-addictive.

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